Friday, December 31, 2010

Hi 2011!


I love the new year because its like everybody's birthday all at once. 

In 2010 I...
*completed my terminal studio
*and {after 5 crazy years} graduated from the University of Oregon with a bachelor of architecture from the nation's highest ranked sustainable architecture school!
* I got to have my grandparents watch me graduate
* I met some wonderful people who have taught me so much and helped me learn and grow in so many ways
* I said goodbye to a very dear member of our family (Duchess) and still mourn her loss
* I kept up my hobby of making jewelry and learned how to refinish furniture,
* I learned how to fish
* I explored some beautiful parts of Oregon before leaving (temporarily),  and I moved to Spain to make my life long dream come true
* I went to France, Switzerland,  The Netherlands (again) AND NORWAY and traveled around Spain! * I learned how to cook
* I managed to "demagnetize" 4 spanish bank cards
* I realized the magnet from my camera case was the cause of the card demagnetization
* I discovered I actually really like kids
* I became vegetarian in 2010.

2010 was probably my favorite year {second only to 2005} but I'm not sad to see it come to an end. I'm looking forward to discovering what 2011 has in store for us :)

In 2011 I hope to:
*see the northern lights
*travel around Eastern europe
*have my family visit me in Spain :)
*continue to meet wonderful positive people with whom I can share healthy friendships that help one another grow
*be a really good vegetarian and even more dietetically healthy
*continue exercising {the problem is when?? I don't get home until past 8 every night}
*start saving money from the private lessons I teach every DAY after work
*continue making things with my hands because it makes me so happy {and learn to knit}
*continue learning and improving my cooking and baking skillz
*get a bank card that doesn't get demagnetized 
*get my architecture portfolio together and land a design job with an architecture firm in Madrid
*be healthy, and happy.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

A Holiday Message From Ricky Gervais: Why I’m an Atheist

Why don’t you believe in God? I get that question all the time. I always try to give a sensitive, reasoned answer. This is usually awkward, time consuming and pointless. People who believe in God don’t need proof of his existence, and they certainly don’t want evidence to the contrary. They are happy with their belief. They even say things like “it’s true to me” and “it’s faith.” I still give my logical answer because I feel that not being honest would be patronizing and impolite. It is ironic therefore that “I don’t believe in God because there is absolutely no scientific evidence for his existence and from what I’ve heard the very definition is a logical impossibility in this known universe,” comes across as both patronizing and impolite.
[UPDATE: For more from Gervais, go to Does God Exist? Ricky Gervais Takes Your Questions]
Arrogance is another accusation. Which seems particularly unfair. Science seeks the truth. And it does not discriminate. For better or worse it finds things out. Science is humble. It knows what it knows and it knows what it doesn’t know. It bases its conclusions and beliefs on hard evidence -­- evidence that is constantly updated and upgraded. It doesn’t get offended when new facts come along. It embraces the body of knowledge. It doesn’t hold on to medieval practices because they are tradition. If it did, you wouldn’t get a shot of penicillin, you’d pop a leach down your trousers and pray. Whatever you “believe,” this is not as effective as medicine. Again you can say, “It works for me,” but so do placebos. My point being, I’m saying God doesn’t exist. I’m not saying faith doesn’t exist. I know faith exists. I see it all the time. But believing in something doesn’t make it true. Hoping that something is true doesn’t make it true. The existence of God is not subjective. He either exists or he doesn’t. It’s not a matter of opinion. You can have your own opinions. But you can’t have your own facts.
Why don’t I believe in God? No, no no, why do YOU believe in God? Surely the burden of proof is on the believer. You started all this. If I came up to you and said, “Why don’t you believe I can fly?” You’d say, “Why would I?” I’d reply, “Because it’s a matter of faith.” If I then said, “Prove I can’t fly. Prove I can’t fly see, see, you can’t prove it can you?” You’d probably either walk away, call security or throw me out of the window and shout, ‘’F—ing fly then you lunatic.”
This, is of course a spirituality issue, religion is a different matter. As an atheist, I see nothing “wrong” in believing in a god. I don’t think there is a god, but belief in him does no harm. If it helps you in any way, then that’s fine with me. It’s when belief starts infringing on other people’s rights when it worries me. I would never deny your right to believe in a god. I would just rather you didn’t kill people who believe in a different god, say. Or stone someone to death because your rulebook says their sexuality is immoral. It’s strange that anyone who believes that an all-powerful all-knowing, omniscient power responsible for everything that happens, would also want to judge and punish people for what they are. From what I can gather, pretty much the worst type of person you can be is an atheist. The first four commandments hammer this point home. There is a god, I’m him, no one else is, you’re not as good and don’t forget it. (Don’t murder anyone, doesn’t get a mention till number 6.)
When confronted with anyone who holds my lack of religious faith in such contempt, I say, “It’s the way God made me.”
But what are atheists really being accused of?
The dictionary definition of God is “a supernatural creator and overseer of the universe.” Included in this definition are all deities, goddesses and supernatural beings. Since the beginning of recorded history, which is defined by the invention of writing by the Sumerians around 6,000 years ago, historians have cataloged over 3700 supernatural beings, of which 2870 can be considered deities.
So next time someone tells me they believe in God, I’ll say “Oh which one? Zeus? Hades? Jupiter? Mars? Odin? Thor? Krishna? Vishnu? Ra?…” If they say “Just God. I only believe in the one God,” I’ll point out that they are nearly as atheistic as me. I don’t believe in 2,870 gods, and they don’t believe in 2,869.
I used to believe in God. The Christian one that is.
I loved Jesus. He was my hero. More than pop stars. More than footballers. More than God. God was by definition omnipotent and perfect. Jesus was a man. He had to work at it. He had temptation but defeated sin. He had integrity and courage. But He was my hero because He was kind. And He was kind to everyone. He didn’t bow to peer pressure or tyranny or cruelty. He didn’t care who you were. He loved you. What a guy. I wanted to be just like Him.
One day when I was about 8 years old, I was drawing the crucifixion as part of my Bible studies homework. I loved art too. And nature. I loved how God made all the animals. They were also perfect. Unconditionally beautiful. It was an amazing world.
I lived in a very poor, working-class estate in an urban sprawl called Reading, about 40 miles west of London. My father was a laborer and my mother was a housewife. I was never ashamed of poverty. It was almost noble. Also, everyone I knew was in the same situation, and I had everything I needed. School was free. My clothes were cheap and always clean and ironed. And mum was always cooking. She was cooking the day I was drawing on the cross.
I was sitting at the kitchen table when my brother came home. He was 11 years older than me, so he would have been 19. He was as smart as anyone I knew, but he was too cheeky. He would answer back and get into trouble. I was a good boy. I went to church and believed in God -– what a relief for a working-class mother. You see, growing up where I did, mums didn’t hope as high as their kids growing up to be doctors; they just hoped their kids didn’t go to jail. So bring them up believing in God and they’ll be good and law abiding. It’s a perfect system. Well, nearly. 75 percent of Americans are God-­‐fearing Christians; 75 percent of prisoners are God-­‐fearing Christians. 10 percent of Americans are atheists; 0.2 percent of prisoners are atheists.
But anyway, there I was happily drawing my hero when my big brother Bob asked, “Why do you believe in God?” Just a simple question. But my mum panicked. “Bob,” she said in a tone that I knew meant, “Shut up.” Why was that a bad thing to ask? If there was a God and my faith was strong it didn’t matter what people said.
Oh…hang on. There is no God. He knows it, and she knows it deep down. It was as simple as that. I started thinking about it and asking more questions, and within an hour, I was an atheist.
Wow. No God. If mum had lied to me about God, had she also lied to me about Santa? Yes, of course, but who cares? The gifts kept coming. And so did the gifts of my new found atheism. The gifts of truth, science, nature. The real beauty of this world. I learned of evolution -– a theory so simple that only England’s greatest genius could have come up with it. Evolution of plants, animals and us –- with imagination, free will, love, humor. I no longer needed a reason for my existence, just a reason to live. And imagination, free will, love, humor, fun, music, sports, beer and pizza are all good enough reasons for living.
But living an honest life -– for that you need the truth. That’s the other thing I learned that day, that the truth, however shocking or uncomfortable, in the end leads to liberation and dignity.
So what does the question “Why don’t you believe in God?” really mean. I think when someone asks that they are really questioning their own belief. In a way they are asking “what makes you so special? “How come you weren’t brainwashed with the rest of us?” “How dare you say I’m a fool and I’m not going to heaven, f— you!” Let’s be honest, if one person believed in God he would be considered pretty strange. But because it’s a very popular view it’s accepted. And why is it such a popular view? That’s obvious. It’s an attractive proposition. Believe in me and live forever. Again if it was just a case of spirituality this would be fine.
“Do unto others…” is a good rule of thumb. I live by that. Forgiveness is probably the greatest virtue there is. But that’s exactly what it is -­‐ a virtue. Not just a Christian virtue. No one owns being good. I’m good. I just don’t believe I’ll be rewarded for it in heaven. My reward is here and now. It’s knowing that I try to do the right thing. That I lived a good life. And that’s where spirituality really lost its way. When it became a stick to beat people with. “Do this or you’ll burn in hell.”
You won’t burn in hell. But be nice anyway.
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i couldn't have said it more perfectly

histerical

I pass-out from laughter every time I read the hilarious texts between parents and their kids at when parents text . com

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

visuals

Lately, I've been thinking about women a lot. I've graduated from college, I'm "in the real world" I've had a few serious romantic relationships,  and I'm living in a foreign country (which I feel forces you to shed and abandon any societal or cultural norms you are used to from back home). I'm beginning to discover what role I want to play in society, in a relationship, in a family etc. So, a lot of gender role issues, societal double standards, and even traditions, have been brought to my attention in my exploration of who and how I want to be. I've been exploring these, questioning them, and discussing them with friends. I've been watching a lot of the tv show Madmen too {its a tv show about advertisement men of the 1960's, [not too far from Will Farrel's portrayal of the anchor man actually] but really the show is about gender roles, and societal "norms", and how these were/are not realistic and how much things have changed since the 1960's but also, it brings to my attention many of the things that I might not be questioning right now, because it seems normal. It makes me wonder how my grandchildren will look back and think, wow I can't believe women DID (or didn't do) THAT back then!} The show is beautiful, I highly highly HIGHLY recommend it to everyone.

Anyway, the following pictures will probably make sense now that you know this is where my brain has been for the past few months:



national geographic post card: this picture takes my breath away every time I see it. It is so powerful.

Munch: woman with poppies {she is so serene and content being surrounded by natural beauty}

Munch: madonna { this captures something about women, that can't really be expressed in words. It's their ora, their presence. It's confusing, but It's there}

Munch: blossom of pain {I just get this. The irony of having something beautiful stem from your pain, of having something physical birth from your pain.  Seeing your pain not just as a phenomenon that's inside you but as an external living creature. I get it.}
Munch: nude by wicker chair {There is something so real revealed in this even though visually it is abstract and impressionist}
Munch: weeping nude {naked physically and naked emotionally. raw. sad. we've all been there}

Munch: Eva Mudocci {my friend told me this girl looked like me, and I kind of agree! I like the way he preserves her glow shrouded by all the darkness around her}

Monday, December 27, 2010

thank you


life is crazy. it is gorgeous.
it amazes me every day.
I'm so fortunate to  have so much beauty around me, 
and to be able to recognize that beauty and appreciate it.
I have such wonderful people around me and 
have had so many incredible opportunities to direct my life the way I wish.
I'm so thankful for my good health and I'm thankful for every experience I have had good and bad.
I can feel myself growing everyday and changing
and I'm  grateful that I have the ability to absorb from my environment and evolve.
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"fruta bomba" by Wifredo Lam

Sunday, December 26, 2010

a decision has been made


I don't like using titles like "vegetarian" or "vegan" because I do believe in grey areas.
This is where I stand with the main items that vegetarians/vegans do not eat (obviously there are many ingredients that derive from animals but I can't list them all. Here is a  list of all those ingredients we don't know how to pronounce or don't know what they mean that are not animal friendly)

-milk: Hardly drank any since I went to uni. I prefer almond/rice/soy milk. (mostly almond though)
-butter: I love butter, but have not bought any for about 6 months now. Margarine with non hydrogenated oils exists as a substitute and I really like that, but I haven't bought that either. I've had no reason to. So, making the switch won't be very hard.
-eggs: I hardly ever eat eggs. But I think baking without them will be difficult, however, very possible.
-cheese and yogurt and honey: obsessed with all 3 will probably never be able to give them up.
-fish: I don't like fish ( lox/salmon are the only exception and I eat those probably once a year) the hardest thing I think will be finding good asian food that doesn't have fish oil in it.
-other seafoods: I LOVE crab/lobster/oysters/muscles/clam/caviar/squid/unagi (eel) etc
-ice cream: love it but havent had any in a REALLY long time. I really like non dairy ice creams too. So don't think i'll have a problem switching that. 

I am going to have a strict vegetarian month where I am completely vegetarian, sprinkled with vegan and raw days just to practice.
the strict vegetarian diet will be as follows:
no food that involves killing animals (so meat, or stock for soup broth broth, or fish oils)
no seafood either
i can have cheese and yogurt and honey (though i dont plan on increasing my consumption of these items, just carry on eating them as i normally do)
no milk, just almond/rice/soy milk
no ice cream 

I feel very good and excited about this decision. it was triggered by a disgusting kebab i ate today. the vegetarian month starts today. december 27th.

fitting in

Trish lives in what I would call the "arab quarter" of Oslo. Lots of brown immigrants. So I fit in great...
One plus of living in this area is having a lot of delicious food around me. I can smell curry from the sidewalk in front of her house. I should go eat some if its not over 10 euro (which it probably will be considering how ridiculously expensive it is here.) I might just have to settle for some muesli (granola).

so i wore 2 layers of wool socks today, i found long johns that a havent taken off for over a day now. i wore 6 layers on top (including my fleece and coat, and leggings over the long johns, gloves, 2 scarves (one thin, and one giant one over it, and a beanie. i could hardly move.

bundled up


I went to watch the sunrise today, and i trespassed on the opera house (dont know why there were no respassing signs, i thought it was allowed so i ignored them) and i got there late, becuse it was broad daylight, but i still couldnt see the sun because 1. it was mostly cloudy and 2. it was coming up from behind a MOUNTAIN...so i waited for an hour and the sun was being really slow, and i never saw it come out from behind the mountain so it was a bit anti climactic. now i am going to go eat something and then go to the munch museum.

opera house





frozen ocean



this reminds me of one of my enclosures projects from arch. school

oslo and the opera house

the sun was supposed to come up over the mountain on the right

cozy in the snow

glass sculpture that looks like an ice berg

snow

oslo

more frozen ocean water

Saturday, December 25, 2010

happy tastebuds

I'm an omnivore. I'm a foodie. sheekamoo (farsi). glotón (spanish). I also am an environmentalist. I KNOW these 2 things are pretty much opposites. I KNOW that many of the decisions that I make about what I eat has a very negative impact on the world. and i KNOW that if i did EVEN a little bit of research I would make the decision to go vegetarian, if not vegan. But i chose to stay ignorant. i chose to not learn because i'm scared of not being able to enjoy my favourite foods. My taste buds always win the battle.

I don't cook very much using meat. Mostly because It takes longer, and I dont have time or patience. But i definitely LOVE meat. and i do eat it in persian food my mom makes, when i go out to restaurants etc.  Having been in Spain for 3 months and have definitely already ODed on ham and meat in general. I find myself seeking out vegetarian options, going to hare krishna centers to eat vegan dishes and researching vegetarian recipes.

The raw food christmas dinner I had last night was SO GOOD that I've decided to start incorporating more raw food meals into my diet as well. its pretty cool because generally it takes WAY less time to prepare the food (because there's no cooking involved) so thats a plus for my impatient side (but there are also a lot of  recipes that involve dehydrating the food and marinating for a few hours). Even the Recipes that take longer I think are completely worth it because it is RAW food, pure food, no vitamins or nutrients are lost, and i definitely think that it wouldnt hurt to include a few of these recipes into my diet each week.

I don't want to give up my eating delicious persian food, and all the wonderful dishes i love that include meat or are cooked, but I know even if I  decreasing the amount of meat/animal products I consume, I will still be able to keep my taste buds happy, be healthier, and tread lightly on this planet

last night I ate some of these Carrot Falafels with Tahini Sauce
and I'm starting to read this book The Kind Life

the Christmas table!

delicious marinated mushrooms and brussel sprouts that had been marinating in orange blossom water and vinagre with cranberries!

the carrot falafels and the fennel beet apple salad

KITTY!!!!!

they are sisters and they are SO FURRY...their names are something like Millen and Billen I cant remember, its Norwegian

golden moons and marzipan


I cant wait to put up pictures of Norway!
I will tonight when I get home. I have been spending the last day, and last night, with Marianne. Today I woke up at 11:30 which wasnt hard considering the sun rose at 9:20 and it will set at 3:15. Tomorrow I'm going to go watch the sunrise from the opera building. marianne will take me. then we will hang out. and then watch the sunset from the opera building. I'm really excited. the moon will rise at 6 pm maybe I can catch that too, but its difficult to be out at night because its so cold, and so dark (it felt like 11 pm). Last night I saw the most amazing moon. it was huge, and GOLDEN. the sky was so crisp and everything was so clear and the snow was sparkling and it was so silent and peaceful. I love the moon. I love how its constantly changing, i think its so exciting to look for the moon at night and see what phase its in. its like a surprise every night. (but if i actually was paying attention i could easily predict what phase it was in ). um, anyway, Now im in Mariannes house and she is making me rice porridge which apparently is typical for christmas lunch! Ill probably hang out here for a few more hours, and then head home.

OH!!! i'm going to the munch museum!!! tomorrow! super excited.

ok im going to go eat marzipan and drink some tea now :)
merry christmas!
god jul! (merry christmas in norwegian)

these are pictures from the walk in the statue park today:
i loved this statue but they looked SO COLD!

so beautiful. you'd never see a statue like that in the states.