currently on repeat...

"Come and open up your folding chair next to me
My feet are buried in the sand and there’s a breeze
There’s a shadow, you can’t see my eyes
And the sea is just a wetter version of the skies
Let’s get a silver bullet trailer and have a baby boy
I’ll safety-pin his clothes all cool and you’ll grafitti up his toys
I’ve got a perfect body, though sometimes I forget
I’ve got a perfect body cause my eyelashes catch my sweat
Yes, they do, they do…"

-Regina Spektor | Folding Chair

everything happens for a reason

*I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.*
— Marilyn Monroe

I totally agree.

just some words

{This picture resonates so strongly with me and it uses no words. http://leiajospe.carbonmade.com}

I just need to write these all out so i can keep them safe and not forget them. I'll explain them later

*besós mar/besos del mar

*Sitting here resting my bones, and this loneliness wont leave me a lone, 2000 miles I roam just to make this dock my home.

*de madrid al cielo

"Happiness is only real when share"

this is something I believe with every cell in my body and it is a huge point of contention for me right now. I am happy in Spain, I am sharing my happiness with many people I care about. But the most important people in the world to me are not here to experience it with me. {Maybe that's why this blog is good? Because I can begin to share some of that happiness with them? But its more like show-and-tell rather than a shared and participatory happiness.} Simultaneously, I think that maybe the happiness I feel here could never be shared that way with the people back home... because, I guess, much of the happiness I get from being here is because I am away from home...and on my own... But I've experienced that  before like when I went to university I couldn't share everything with say, my family, but I mean i'm on the opposite side of the earth from the vast majority of my friends and family. When I'm awake they're asleep, when They're awake I'm asleep

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I don't know, I guess I'll just stop thinking about it for now and just enjoy the fact that I am here.

And be thankful that the internet exists.

also video chat.

but I'm still waiting for teleporting.

(wow, teleporting is being underlined as a misspelled word. I guess that's a good place to start. Actually adding the word to the dictionary since the concept obviously exists.)